Saturday, September 30, 2006

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry but i have to say what i currently feel the HARSH way. Expect a lot of blasphemous words.

Una. Naiinis ako sa isang tao. Putangina. D ko maintindihan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Lalo na sa knya. Sa lahat ng tao na pde kong maramdaman ng ganitong pakiramdam, bakit sa kanya pa? Shit. Di tulad ng dati, ang saya2 ng paligid pag anjan sha. Pero ngayon, pangit na. Yung tipong ang saya ko nung wla sha tas biglang nawala ung saya ko nung dumating sha. Bkit ba ako ganito? Ay mali, bkit ba sha ganyan? Kita nyo na, dati hindi ko pinapansin ung mga pangit niyang ugali. Di ko pansin na may pangit shang ugali eh. Pero ngayon, halos lahat na lng.. Pangit! waaah. Bakit ba ganito. Ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam. Ayoko talaga. haaaay.

Pangalawa.. Naiinis ako sa isang tao kse makasarili sha. (teka lng, wg mong iisipin na ikaw toh. HINDI IKAW ITONG TINUTUKOY KO, OK?) Lahat na lng gusto niya nasusunod siya. Gusto siya lagi ang iniiisip. Madalas niyang gusto na masaya sha. Makasarili sha talaga. Nku, siya ang pinakamakasarili sa lahat ng mga pinakamasarili. Lagi na lng niya sinasabi skn na magbabago na siya. Pero anong nangyayari? Wala hanggang salita na lng sha. Lagi niyang sinasbe na hindi niya maiwasan na hindi sha maging makasarili. Nasanay ksi sha na binibigay ang gusto niya! Kaya un, naging makasarili tuloy sha!

Pangatlo. Naiinis ako sa Monetary Policy kse hindi ko sya maintindihan! Tangina sa Lunse na ung report nmn dun hindi ko pa rin sha maintindihan! Nyeta nmn kseng kuryente yan! Kaninang alas dos lang bumalik! Punyeta. Lintik. Kailangan ko shang maintindihan kse kung hindi mapipilitan akong ndi magreport sa lunes. At pagnangyari un pde kong ibagsak ang economics. Nyeta. FAvorite subject ko dati ang economics. Pero ngayon.. hirap na hirap ako. Ayoko nmn ibagsak toh. Ayokong magkaroon ng bagsak kundi sasabunin na nmn nila ako ng mga salita. kainis. Bwiset!

Pang-apat.. Naiinis ako kse kailangan kong pumunta sa kasal ng pinsan ko sa linggo. Ayoko sanang pumunta kse finals na sa 9. At ang dami ko png papers na kailangan kong gawin. Pg di nmn ako pumunta lagot n nman ako sa knila. Sasabihin na nmn nila mas pinahahalagahan ko p ung mga kaibigan ko kaysa sa pamilya ko. Bkit? MAs gusto ko daw pumunta sa bday ng mga kaibigan ko kaysa sa mga kamag-anak ko. Pag sinabihan nila ako tungkol jan, lagot na. Ikokonekta na nila yan sa ibang bagay. Pota. Kainis. Panlima. Naiinis ako kse nde nila nakikita ung effort ko sa pag-aaral. Pno nmn nila makikita un eh laging nakasarado ung pinto ko tuwing mag-aaral ako. Ayoko nmn sha buksan kasi di ako makakapg-aral. Eto pa masama, cnsbe nila na ngtetetxt lng daw ako tuwing gabi at hindi ako nag-aaral. Biruin mo un? NYeta nman. Ano bang gusto nila para patunayan ko na nag-aaral ako? NAg-aaral nmn ako ah. Pota. Nakakainis.

There. Finally i've released all the ugly feelings that i have inside me. Shit. I hate this. I hate them.

Oops. PS. I don't need any of your comments. And i'm referring to all those who'll read this.

Shit.Shit.Shit.

I hate them. I hate you. I hate myself. The world is CRUEL.

Posted by gel at 9:29 PM

waaah. Stupid electricity.

Kainis nmn! Wala png kuryente sa amin! grrr. Kamusta nmn at 2 days ng brown-out sa amin! Punyeta. Sana lng mei kuryente n kme mmya. May quiz kme sa bio tas mei report p kme sa I'm eco! Nyeta! I'm here in Matcha. Near skul. Imma practice for our prod mya2. Hehe. Mejo tinatamad p ko pumunta dun eh. hehehe. Oh well.

Posted by gel at 12:18 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

busy busy

Whoa. My school life is whoa. I've been doing a lot of things lately. And mind you, they're all school related. Whoa. I'm bombarded with lots of school shitloads and whatnots. Papers are like whoa. Sorry but i can't seem to find the perfect adjective to describe the tons of papers i have to do. whoa whoa whoa. I'm suppose to have two reports tomorrow and one 50 item QUIZ. Good thing there'll be no classes tomorrow. The storm is a lifesaver. That's academically speaking of course. Whoa. I'll finally have the liberty to sleep for so long. yehey.

Anyhoo.. I didn't like my theater teacher a while ago. Pano ba nmn, she didn't let me and dianne take the make-up quiz. Aaargh. Yan tuloy, we got a effin zeerow. Kaasar. What's really really annoying is that she let some of classmates take make-up quizzes. She didn't even ask them excuse letters! Biruin niyo un! She is so unfair. Ok ok i damit, tis my fault why i wasn't able to take the quiz last last wednesday. The sole reason why i ditched the quiz is that i wasn't prepared. I thought kasi that tis better to be absent than to get a failing mark. I also thought that she'd give me the quiz. Ack. But she didn't. Unfair! Anyhoo.. 'nuff of that. We'll be having our production next week. And i'm one of the characters! yeeha! You guys should watch! C'mon! Gimme sa support! haha. Imma give my best to it. Waaah. I sure hope that my paper, class performances and this prod would pull my grades down. effin exams. waaah.

Posted by gel at 8:55 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Advanced Merry Christmas!

What's with the title? Wala lng. I just hope na whoever reads this, uhm.. I will be the first one to greet you advanced Merry Christmas! Hey, it's 96 days to go before Christmas!

Imma change na nga pla my blog address. Uhm.. d ko sure pero bka ito na ung bago kong url: sillysillyangelie.blogspot.com . Ayoko na nung undeniablyanorexic, so not me kasi eh. Yuck ngayon ko lng narealize. hehe. Nakailang posts na ako ah. ahhaha. Saka tanggap ko na minsan na hindi ako mataba. hehe. Congrats ba? Pero minsan talaga natatabaan ako sa sarili ko. One reason is insecurity. Cause you know i see a lot of girls who have a nice tall and slim body. Sometime i just wish i'm one of them: tall and slim. It's really hard being like this you know. People often don't see me as an eighteen year old college sophomore. They see me as a fourteen year old high school sophomore. Kung d nila ako tatanungin ng age ko di pa nila malalaman. I always get these responses everytime I tell them my age: O, d nga? Akala ko 14 ka lng! or Alam mo di ka mukhang college, mukha kang first year high school! or This is the most hurtfulAng liit mo kse eh! haaay. Pero i'm still thankful na rin of what God gave me. Cause hey, let's look on the bright side.. I'm perfectly normal. I don't have any physical
defects nor do i've any mental defects. Thank you, God.

Haaay. oh well. Anyhoo. Time indeed flies so fast.... Ang lapit na ng finals! waaah. Tapos after ng finals, sembreak na! yehey! Tapos after nun... ~~Second sem~~ all saint's day.. then sembreak.. then.. CHRISTMAS! A very different Christmas =D ehehehe.

Posted by gel at 8:58 PM

Friday, September 15, 2006

hello!

Ayan ah, wish granted!

We're here in Matcha (Jen, Sam and me). I'm waiting for him. We're gonna watch a movie.. hehe... You are the one. hahaha. Sheesh. Tagal tagal nman. It's super cold here. Feels like we're inside the refrigerator. haha. exaj.

This blog has been dead for weeks! Waaah. School work overload! Up to now i still have a lot to do. ack. And oh, finals are coming up. Naku. cram na namn toh for sure. hahaha.

Anyhoo... A lot has happened. As in. There's the bortday of Jeb, my visit to UST, my 10 page paper in eco... etc. And alot is still to come! haha. Visit my multiply for some new pictures. ehehehe.

that's it. hahaha. I'm using Jen's laptop btw. hehe. Goodness.. Our my dad's laptop and our pc have an effin virus. nyeta na. stupid stupid virus!